2002-09-19 - 5:00 p.m.
It's quite a pitiful state to be confused about nothing and everything. Like an unobserved Schrodenger cat. I'm at work watching these people walk by, and they're all ugly, and they're all beautiful. We are such ghastly magnificent creatures, capable of so much harm and good.
I spoke to her for a long time last night. These long distance calls are going to get expensive. She's so fucking rad and it just breaks my heart more. She is beautiful, and it's best that she's far away. If she lived here she'd just hate me too. I want to feel good and confident about something again, but this time I want to be right.
